Get Away

You ever feel like just getting away from it all? That is how I feel right now. It is that deep down drained feeling. The feeling you are giving a hell of a lot more than you are receiving. The worst part is that the giving that you do is utterly unappreciated. You get to a point where you feel like you would like to go somewhere where nobody knows your name. You add up the tally and the figures show that you would come out way ahead if you just did for yourself and the little ones of course and tell everyone else you do you and I do me. They say you don’t miss your water till the well runs dry. I feel like cutting the rope on the damn bucket. I am happy to be able to lose myself in work most of the day and night. I am up for a nice promotion. If I get it I don’t see giving up my night job. I enjoy work. Work is my hobby. I think I am thinking too much today, if that is possible. I have so many things running through my head I can’t listen to music with words right now for fear of brain overload. I am angry right now more at myself than anyone else. The saying is true give an inch and they’ll take a mile. There are a lot of people that take kindness for weakness. They do this perhaps because they are so selfish themselves that they could never think of freely giving of themselves. I feel sorry for people in this state of mind. I really don’t I feel sorry for people that are around people in this state of mind. They make it hard for everyone else to interact with each other. There is always an undertone of distrust. People that take kindness for weakness go right up there with people that think everyone owes them something. I for one know exactly who I owe. They send me little envelopes with little envelopes inside of them on a monthly basis. The people that seem to think that someone owes them something always really owe the most. Well that is all I need to say right now. I needed to get that there ramble off of my chest. I will not be correcting anyone at work tonight. I will be keeping to myself. I think I will go play Miles Davis “Blue In Green” and see if that helps me feel better.